Annie is a writer ( Aidy Bryant, Saturday Night Live). Annie also happens to be a plus size young woman who’s more on the timid, don’t want to take up too much space kind of individual. But also, a woman just trying to live her fucking life without unwanted “healthy” advice from strangers.

She lives with her best friend, Fran (Lilly Adefope) a Black goddess who loves herself, her body and the ladies. Fran’s legit because she’s always trying to encourage Annie to see herself in a better light and to not settle for bullshit.

As a Black fat woman this series definitely has some relatable experiences I’ve had and I’m sure other woman have had as well. Let’s unpack these experiences:

1. People pretending that they want to see you healthy but in reality, you being yourself pisses them off. Nobody wants to see fat people happy. How dare we be okay with our bodies. People will say bullshit like, “give herself permission” or “there’s a tiny person just waiting to get out.” Annie goes through all the fake sympathy, but really they just want to fat shame her for “not taking steps to loose weight.” It’s ridiculous when people try to play the health card but in reality, they want to control you.

2. Fuck boy Ryan. Not only is Ryan a fuckboy but because of Annie’s low self esteem and trauma she hasn’t process she thinks that Ryan is worth her time. WHICH HE IS NOT. Homie had her sneaking out of his house, climbing over a fucking fence and the only reason she met his mom was being SHE WAS OVER THERE DOING HIS FUCKING LAUNDRY!! No! We need to stop letting society tell us what we’re worth. And if our bodies take up too much space we are only allowed to be with certain type of people. FUCK THAT. STOP THAT SHIT.

3. We all know our parents want the best for us, but don’t know how to deal with issues because they want us to live “normal” lives. But at the end of the day, we have to know ourselves and what makes us happy. Annie’s mother, Vera (Julia Sweeney) struggles to be superwoman, trying to control everything within her family. But doesn’t realize the message she’s been sending her daughter throughout the years is extremely harmful. I’m no stranger to that mentality with my own mother. My mother always reminded me of my weight, “do you need that second helping” “don’t forget to suck it in mija” She would train me to suck in my stomach with a belt, pulling it tight and learning to control my breathing. Parents want the best for their children but at the end of the day it’s about our own happiness. And let’s be real, half the time people are just projecting their own insecurities.

4. My favorite scene is when Annie attends a pool party for fat beautiful babes. She goes and sees all these woman enjoying themselves. No one is afraid of being seen or afraid of someone calling them out because of their bodies. Finally Annie takes a moment to not give any of the fucks and dances her ass off and finally gets in the fucking pool. I was screaming with laughter! It was awesome.

5. Annie’s bullshit boss, Gabe (John Cameron Mitchell). Gabe is one of those white gay men who’s been around since the 80s/90s so he thinks he discovered everything. He doesn’t acknowledge his privilege or his fucking fat phobia. This motherfucker literally calls Annie his “millennial dumpling.” (Are you fuckin kidding me?) and later on referees to her as a lazy bish “lazy bodies, lazy minds” when she’s late to force fun from the pool party. First off she’s better than me because I would not have shown up, and further more instead of asking her why she’s late he just assumes the worst. GTFOH.

SPOILER ALERT: Annie lets him have it, and walks out!

6. Throughout the series, Annie has finally got two articles published, her first about unrealistic beauty standards when she was suppose to do a simple food review at a local strip club and the second when she’s finally has enough and publishes HELLO! I’M FAT on her own. Through the mist of comments praising her work, Annie realizes she has a troll who is constantly bullying her online with grotesque comments and pics. Finally sick of the bullshit, Annie finds and confronts this prick. Who does she find? An insecure snowflake that confides in her that he used to be fat, that he only trolls her and then has the audacity to try and invite her in for a drink. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?! She doesn’t do it of course but it’s the mentality that men like that think they are doing women like Annie a fucking favor for being interested or trying to straight up fuck. It’s disgusting and just shows how men and society think Fat women aren’t worth real relationships. Shrill is a wonderful representation that that shit isn’t real. Women, Fat women don’t owe anyone anything. We don’t need to feel shame for being okay with our bodies.

The first season was too short and I cannot wait for the second season to see Annie continue to kill the game, to see herself more powerful and to stop waiting on other people to give her permission to live her fucking life.

DONT WAIT ON PEOPLE. DO YOU.