I know I have been negative Nancy so I've decided to start thinking in a different perspective and just trying to unlearn victim behavior. That shit can be hard and please know that you should work all that shit out in your own time. Nobody has the right to rush you, but at the same time know that you can overcome your obstacles and you ARE NOT YOUR STRUGGLES.
Practice breathing, whenever my anxiety gets the best of me, I automatically stop what i'm doing or not doing and I focus on my breathing. I tell myself, I'm okay and I count to 4.
example: "Tesia, your okay, just breathe. 1...2...3...4. " take your time, sit down if you have to.
I've been drinking lots of water, try to make it a habit to have water on you at all times. If you're somewhere were you can splash some water on your face, do that too.
START BELIEVING IN YOURSELF.
Whenever I feel unsure of myself, I immediately try to hype myself up. I've been doing a Mary Jane and leaving notes in my room to reassure myself, that I AM THAT BITCH.
It's amazing to me how easily women forget how much talent we have, that we have so much potential in our lives, and what it means to embrace it and ourselves.
I was recently talking to a friend and she said something that really hit me. She said,
"What would happen if we truly let ourselves heal?"
This is the truest shit I've heard. Women do not let ourselves heal and if we do, we wait till we have tried to heal everyone else and we are left with no energy for ourselves.
I say FUCK THAT.
Now is the time to take control.
I've been slacking on reading and i recently got back on my shit. I'm currently reading This Will Be My Undoing by Morgan Jerkins. This book gives me goosebumps because I forgot how therapeutic it is to read books by other WOC that have been through the same bullshit and have overcome their personal struggles.
If you need any recommendations or have some from me, please let me know.
Make time for the people you love and trust.
I know how easily it is to stay to yourself when your going through it, but sometimes the best thing is to surround yourself with the people you love and can trust. Surround yourself with the people you know you can confide in.
These are things i'm learning all over again because sometimes that's how shit goes. And that's okay. You are human. You are constantly growing and learning.
The only thing you can do is keep trying.
Because you are worth it.